I'm too young

I have had migraines for for about 15 years. It never concerned me enough to worry about them. As I got older they became less frequent, maybe once or twice a year. I had one at the early stages of this pregnancy just like I did with Kent. I didn't think anything about it. My doctor is aware and we prepared for it.

In the last 5 weeks I have gotten 4. They have entered a different kind of hell. I always saw floating lights, had difficulty speaking, and tingling in my hand before the pain set in. It is not as common as a regular migraine but it's managble. I am now having paralysis on one side and on one occasion couldn't find the words to talk to Superman. I knew what I wanted to say but it wouldn't translate to speech. I had to play charades with Superman to get him to understand what I wanted. I was scared. I found refereneces to what I was experiecing in medical texts but I was worried it was going to continue.

My last doctor appointment my doctor wanted to verify it was in fact just a complicated migraine or hemipelegic migraine so he sent me to a nuerologist who was willing to see me the next day. I assumed I would be seen, comforted and sent home with doctor's order to relax.

I was wrong. I am now scheduled for a MRI after this baby is delivered. He believes I might have had a mini-stroke with good recovery. So minor I was able to recover in a short period time. I was found to have a clotting disorder during my fertlity testing, which ultimately was to blame for my miscarriages. Apparently pregnancy, migraine history and the clotting disorder increases my chances enough where he is concerned.

I was devasted. Superman didn't go with me because we didn't think it would be a big deal. I still am very emotional and start to cry everytime I think about it. I just don't know how to deal with this. I have had so many different medical problems for someone my age, how did this happen to me? I know this hasn't been confirmed but he presentation did not give the impression he was just ruling it out to be safe.

I am scared and don't want to leave my family. I don't know how to deal with this.

So it begins

Last week, Superman sent the email to Krypto about the change in childcare and informed her of Clark's last day at after school care. And then...nothing. No response. No nasty texts. No hateful emails. So we waited. And waited.

On Sunday, he decided to text her and make sure she had no desire to put the account in her name. She simply said she had made an appointment with her attorney and the childcare would be putting Clark on the waiting list once the two weeks were up. She went on about how it was in Clark's best interest to stay in care and how it was not discussed with her. She went on to say because of joint custody the decision should have been agreed upon.

Superman merely responded the order states he must provide childcare and if she decides not to use what we provide she has every right to seek other care however at her own expense.

I just can't believe she doesn't see the difference. The papers don't require a level of childcare in fact it states "sitter". She says its whats best. Does she not understand if we can't afford it then it falls upon her to get it if she thinks it's what's best. So if Superman decided private school was what was best would she agree to pay for half? I somehow doubt it. She can be very picky when it's not her money she is playing with.

Now I am stressed out again. I know this is what we both expected but now that its actually happening it bothers me. I know she can't file contempt but that doesn't mean her attorney won't do it. I know she could force mediation but it would solve nothing since Superman will not agree to pay for childcare when I'm staying home. Why can't things just be easy? Hopefully her attorney will tell her she'll just have to deal with it if she doesn't want to pay for it herself. Fingers crossed and praying that a judge would see it wouldn't be fair for 2 kids to go to childcare because of a selfish mother of another.