Monday, December 12, 2011

I'm too young

I have had migraines for for about 15 years. It never concerned me enough to worry about them. As I got older they became less frequent, maybe once or twice a year. I had one at the early stages of this pregnancy just like I did with Kent. I didn't think anything about it. My doctor is aware and we prepared for it.

In the last 5 weeks I have gotten 4. They have entered a different kind of hell. I always saw floating lights, had difficulty speaking, and tingling in my hand before the pain set in. It is not as common as a regular migraine but it's managble. I am now having paralysis on one side and on one occasion couldn't find the words to talk to Superman. I knew what I wanted to say but it wouldn't translate to speech. I had to play charades with Superman to get him to understand what I wanted. I was scared. I found refereneces to what I was experiecing in medical texts but I was worried it was going to continue.

My last doctor appointment my doctor wanted to verify it was in fact just a complicated migraine or hemipelegic migraine so he sent me to a nuerologist who was willing to see me the next day. I assumed I would be seen, comforted and sent home with doctor's order to relax.

I was wrong. I am now scheduled for a MRI after this baby is delivered. He believes I might have had a mini-stroke with good recovery. So minor I was able to recover in a short period time. I was found to have a clotting disorder during my fertlity testing, which ultimately was to blame for my miscarriages. Apparently pregnancy, migraine history and the clotting disorder increases my chances enough where he is concerned.

I was devasted. Superman didn't go with me because we didn't think it would be a big deal. I still am very emotional and start to cry everytime I think about it. I just don't know how to deal with this. I have had so many different medical problems for someone my age, how did this happen to me? I know this hasn't been confirmed but he presentation did not give the impression he was just ruling it out to be safe.

I am scared and don't want to leave my family. I don't know how to deal with this.


My Mercurial Nature said...

Hang in there...I know it's scary, but you don't want to amp up your stress levels!!

Lori G. said...

It is scary but once the baby's here, you'll have the definitive answer AND you'll be on medicine to prevent this. You're lucky in many ways. No lasting damages and you know the symptoms AND you're going to be treated for it. A lot of people have strokes and it has much different outcomes.

Hang in there!

PS If you want, you might look and see if there's a neuro-ophthalmlogist -- they can also give you a good diagnosis/treatment. I worked for one and we saw people all the time with migraines.

Crys said...

I really wish I could give you a big hug. I'll be sending you lots of good thoughts and prayers that it's not as bad as your fears tell you it is.